Wednesday, January 22, 2014

HoH

I love this new lifestyle ... I am crazy for Baby Doll ... ha we are no longer vanilla!!!

I take my new responsibilities extreamly seriously.  Daddy, the final decision maker, the protector,  the provider,  the one person that makes Baby Doll truley happy, the one person she has entrusted everthing too.  This is all I want to live for.  Unfortunately,  our in world we need to make money to survive ... so work takes my focus off Baby Doll ... and that is no good, especially when work is not going well. (working on plan to keep Baby Doll in my focus more ... fingers crossed).

I have been grumpy latley.  I hate being grumpy around Baby Doll.   That is not what she needs from me.  There are times I feel I have not filled these shoes ... there is a learning curve for this daddy ... mostly how to juggle these strong emotions to make the world perfect for Baby Doll with the reality that our world is not perfect.   It is hard for me to explain yet, but the best way is:

When Baby Doll is not smiling and generally not happy, I feel as though I have failed, I feel drained , I feel I need to find a fix for her now ... even if there is not a fix.

When Baby Doll is smiling and Bubbly,  I feel confident,  I feel energized,  I feel like nothing can stop Baby Doll and me.

I love you Baby Doll .... change is on the way  ... I promise .... then I will be able to punish you anytime!!!


Sunday, January 19, 2014

Sets

In mine and Baby Doll's blog we have mentioned "sets"in relation to punishment and spankings. Sooo.... I figured I would explain sets.

I came up with Sets pretty fast after I received the Greatest gift ever.  Living with Baby Doll and our 2 children, there are limits to when I can discipline her (FYI... we do not discipline our children with any sort of force or display our lifestyle to them).  There are also large parts of the day when we are apart ... work being the largest.  So, how was I to punish her when a rule was broken?

SETS!!!

If Baby Doll breaks a rule, Daddy, me, assigns a number of sets determined by what the infaction is and how blatantly Baby Doll broke the rule.

The first set is 1 spanking on each cheek.

2 sets is 2 spankings on each cheek ... one each cheek followed by one each cheek. Then back to first set.  So, set 2 has a total of 6 spankings -- 3 on each cheek.

3 sets is 3 spankings on each cheek ... totaling 6 spankings. Then back to 2 sets.  Set 3 then has ... 12.

And so on.  Now, Baby Doll, usually ends up between 10 sets and 16 sets.  There are times that she hits 20 sets.  So check this out...

10 sets:

20 (one spanking for each cheek)+18+16 14+12+10+8+6+4+2=

110 spankings ... 55 on each cheek!!!

Now when we hit 20.....

40+38+36+34+32+30+28+26+24+22+20+18+16+14+12+10+8+6+4+2=
420!!!

When we get this high, Baby Doll knows why we are this high, and understands and to some extent expects and is disappointed if Daddy does not correct her.  Baby Doll wants to know her Daddy cares enough to help make her a better woman.  She feels empty if Daddy is not paying attention,  and I cannot have that!!!



Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Love Blossoming at the Pace of the Big Bang

Baby Doll and I have become very very close since we started down this new path.  I feel like our love is blossoming at the pace of the Big Bang.  I hate being apart from her ... I think of Baby Doll non stop.  Today at work I was typing an email and Baby Doll drifted into my thoughts, I almost missed that I ended the email with I love you ... oops ... glad I caught that.

Work has been tough lately and all I look forward to is going home to be with my Baby Doll's Daddy.  Tonight was tough ... real tough for both of us.  With my anticipation of getting home, and the bad day Baby Doll had ... well it was tough.

With Baby Doll being short with me and the kids, and Daddy looking for some love, it turned from the blossoming Big Bang into a self perpetuating back hole.  We both feed off of eachother for good or worse.

Now, I am not saying that everything is wrong ... I still feel my love growing exponentially, it just seems with all this emotion, we have to be careful of these potential traps.  Daddy needs to learn how to better understand these emotions so I can steer us away from any black holes.

The other issue I have is that now we are on this path of domestic discipline,  I find myself feeling like I am failing as her Daddy when she is not happy.  I know everyone cannot be happy all the time, but my Baby Doll deserves to be ... aghhh...

Any way, at one point, Baby Doll snapped at me in such a way, or just enough times at Daddy, that I had to quickly bend her over the couch arm and give her 10 firm spankings ... followed by a big hug.... of course.   This settled things down.  Shortly after Baby Doll went to bed.  I checked on her a little later, made sure she was properly tucked in,  pacifier and all.

Soon Daddy will head to bed.  There will be some lov'n, and some spankings -- for both swearing, back talking and not respecting Daddy -- and more lov'n!!!

Any who ... that is where Daddy's head is tonight.

BeLove you Baby Doll ... and you better not forget that!!!









Sunday, January 12, 2014

Yes, Baby Doll, Learning Days

In Baby Doll's blog post,  "Forms of Discipline," I had asked her to write about the "learing experience" she experienced that evening.  She did a very good job explaining the evening ... from Baby Doll's perspective.  

Now some of Daddy's notes on the Learning Day. 

Learning Day???  Well this was the inaugural Learning Day.  Learning Day is all or at least a good chunck of a day dedicated to helping Baby Doll with rules and attitudes that are difficult for her to learn. 

In my current thinking, ever time we need to have a learning day there will be similar themes throughout the day, but each day will have special thought put into it; the day's activities will center around an issue Baby Doll is having.  The first lesson is the problem Baby Doll is having asking Daddy to potty.
(Ok, ok, ok .... grown woman asking her husband to potty.  YEP!!!  -- I touched on this in an earlier post,  and will expand on that post another time).

I put a lot of thought in how to prepare.  There must be anticipation for Baby Doll.  There must be an understanding of what we are learning and why we are needing this Learning Day.  There must be time for Baby Doll to be scared.    There must be punishment -- because we are here because Baby Doll is not been following a specific rule and spankings have not helped her to remember.  There must be time to Love and Cherish my Baby Doll.

Anticipation:

I had Baby Doll's cell phone, and left her a message on it.  Later, when she was unsuspecting and relaxed, I handed her the phone and told her see had a message.  The message instructed her to get right up right now and take am shower.   Baby Doll was instructed to ensure she was bare for Daddy.  Once she was finished, she was to put on her night gown and sox and meet Daddy in the bedroom.  Baby Doll was a perfect little girl with these directions.

The purpose of the message was to announce we were having a learning day and to quickly build some anticipation for the day. By telling Baby Doll that Daddy will be upstairs hopefully put a twinge of scare in her.

During the shower, Daddy was running around setting the day. I was so excited both sexual, but also for the opportunity to use this day to bring Baby Doll and I closer together -- and boy it did.

The Lesson:

When Baby Doll came into the bedroom, I was sitting on a tall stool; I told her she was not to speak unless spoken to; I told her she must say Daddy before she speaks.  I asked her to lift her night gown so Daddy can inspect how bare she was -- And Baby Doll was nice and bare.  Then we went over how she was not following the potty rule.  We talked about how it was the first rule, and how spankings have not helped Baby Doll improve much.  I explained that she is my Baby Doll and will be wearing a diaper for the rest of the day.

Oh yah .... sitting on the bed next to Baby Doll is laid out all the implements Daddy is planning on using; items like a thermometer,  lubricant, anal plug and beads, diapers, Ben Gay and the such.  I placed these items out so Baby Doll's head would begin spinning -- what does Daddy have in mind.  And boy did it work ... as I was lecturing her about why we were having Learning Day, her eyes kept looking at the bed with a concerned look.

Once we went over the reason why were having Learning Day, and how the day would go, I brought Baby Doll to the bed and bent her over a pillow so her sweet ass was in the air and her face was looking at the bed.  I moved all my implements under her nose, told her not to move and went to take a shower.  I was gone for about 15 minutes.  When I returned to the room, Baby Doll had not moved, but I could feel how nervous she had become.  Baby Doll telling Big Beautiful Brown Eyes were scared. Let us begin the day!!!

Punishment and Love:

We started with a firm spanking to redden the checks and put a little sting into the lesson -- Baby Doll is a champ at taking spankings, although this time she began to shed tears -- it breaks my heart to see Baby Doll upset, but I need to be her stong Daddy at this point.  I walked Baby Doll over to the other side of the bed where I set up a changing station.  Before I diapered Baby Doll, I took her tempature -- mmm... a little high .. we better keep an eye on it.  Once diapered, we went down stairs and had Baby Doll Cuddle up on me.  I feel it is very important for Daddy to show Baby Doll that she is loved and safe. Baby Doll is letting go of a lot of her independence, making her exposed, that is why Daddy needs to make sure she umderstands how much I love her.

Oh ... I forgot ... Daddy made Baby Doll pound water.  Baby Doll is expect to pee in her diaper.  She has never allowed herself to lose control like this -- well who has really???  I knew it would be hard to let "go" so to help things along, I filled her up.

The day continued with lots love with sprinklings of punishments.  Baby Doll explains them remainder of the day the best at this point (I have been working on this post slowly for days and it is time to move on)

I love my Baby Doll and will give more insight with my thoughts and development as her Daddy as they come along.













Saturday, January 11, 2014

Rules

Recently, my Baby Doll posted her rules.  Yep, I have rules ... bhahahaha; but seriously,  these rules are designed to help my Baby Doll respect her Daddy. Baby Doll is true NJ girl at heart and temperament.   This has been a challenge at times for Baby Doll to respect Daddy's newly given authority.

Have no misgivings,  my Baby Doll truly wants these rules, she wants to obey her Daddy, and expects to be punished when these rules are broken.  She understands that I am the judge of when rules are broken, I determine the proper punishment for the broken rule, and I execute the punish for the broken rule.

The 1st rule I set was:

Baby Doll must ask me to go potty.

Wow ... that seems controling?  Well, no.  It is designed to make her think about her Daddy and the commitment she gave to me.  It is also designed to humble my NJ girl Baby Doll with a touch of humiliation.  Baby Doll has received many, many reddened ass for not obeying this rule.

The 2nd rule I set was:

Baby Doll must be shaven below the neck.

To be honest, I am not sure where this rule came from, I never had a problem with hair on women ... it happens, especially in the winter.  But I have enjoyed this rule.  Baby Doll has the softest skin in the world, and I get to enjoy it all of forever!

The 3rd rule I set was:

Baby Doll must Respect Daddy at all times.

Well, this is the backbone of the lifestyle Baby Doll and I chosen.  Without respecting Daddy, everything falls apart.


The 4th rule I set was:

Baby Doll can never say No to Daddy.

To say the least,  this is an extremely tough rule for Baby Doll.  By all mean, this does not mean Baby Doll can't disagree with me, it just means she is not allowed to use the word No when she disagees with me.  I designed this rule to help Baby Doll learn to respect daddy.


Well, it is late.  Baby Doll fell asleep waiting for me to execute todays punishment for the rules she broke:

3 times no ask for potty
3 blatant disrespect for daddy
1 for not shaving
And a couple extra for not playing with her favorite toy.

With that list ... 16 set, here we come ... wakie, wakie!!!



Friday, January 10, 2014

The Best Gift My Baby Doll has Ever Given


Lets start out with a little history.  My Baby Doll, who just got on to the internet 3 years ago, and fights the advancement of technology, shows me a blog she started when I arrived at home!! Wow ... blog ... I have not even played much myself in the blogosphere.  What drove her to the internet:
Ten years ago, I had just started dating my wife, Baby Doll.  We have been married for about six years,  and have two great children.  Baby Doll is a beautiful,  sexy, smart and self confident woman.
Just after Thanksgiving,  we were watching a little tv;  all of a sudden, she leaned over to me and gives me the greatest gift I have ever received or will will ever receive.   She gave me herself.  What ... Baby Doll fully submitted to me;  and I knew what she meant immediately.   Also, immediately, I felt a great warmth of love, honor and responsibility flow over me.  It was awsome!!!
Ok, so what does this mean?
It means, I am in charge... yep Daddy; Head of Household ... in every aspect of life.  Final descisions on finacial matters, family matters, sex, everything.  I can set rules and expect her to listen and obey theses rules.  I can punish her when these rules are not followed.
Whoa whoa whoa ... I am punishing, with spankings, my Baby Doll.  Well, yes!!  Baby Doll and I have always had a strong sex life, we like to play and we like to play hard.  Our previous ten years together had led us to this point.  It was not a big leap for Baby Doll and me.  Now it is not play, it is part of our life, our lifestyle.
With everything Baby Doll has given to me, I immediately understood that the well being of the woman I love and cherish, the family we work so hard for, everthing is my decision.   I fully accept this responsibility (and not because now if I catch my wife "in the right light" while ... say doing dishes, I can bend her over in front of the sink and have my way with her), it is because my Baby Doll now feels 100% safe now.  It is because we do not argue any more.  It is because Baby Doll and I have never been closer.  It is because Baby Doll and I are now able to constructively work though issues or disagreements.  The best part is this intense love we feel for eachother;  an intense desire to be with eachother,  an intense desire each of us have to take care of the other.
It is a new, much more powerful commitment than marriage.  It is a new chapter in our lives.  This blog I have created is to balance the blog Baby Doll (northvt.blogspot.com) started, Daddy and Me.  It is to document this exciting and unexpected time in our lives.  It is to maybe help others to consider the love, joy and benefits of the path Baby Doll and I have begun, the path some call domestic discipline, but I consider the greatest gift I could ever ask for.